So anyway. Summer began today. The air conditioner needs Freon, so it was HOT in the house. The man's coming tomorrow, though, thank goodness. The kids and I stayed outside in the water a lot today. It was actually cooler outside than it was in the house.
We had a Memorial Day cookout yesterday at my Mom's. The first one since Mamaw passed away. It was strange. Strange and sad. I walked back into the house before we left to say goodbye and found my mom crying. I hate to see her hurt. And she's hurting, bad. There's nothing I can say to make her feel better. I miss Mamaw so much. I pick up the phone to call her at least 2 times a week. I had a bad day last week and stopped by the cemetary to "talk" to her. Silly, I know. She's not there! She's in Heaven. And if she can see me down here, she's probably laughing, because she can see the "big picture". Jordan is already starting to forget her. I put a picture of the two of them up in his room and try to talk about her every day.
That's enough for tonight. Going to bed now. Hopefully I can fall asleep despite the hotness.
